“You’ll always have some sort of pain…”
About a year ago at a visit with a doctor, I was asked what my main symptoms I faced daily were. After explaining that some were daily while others luckily were much less frequent, I was told that “I’ll always have some sort of pain”. I agreed, accepted it and have told a number of people this. Tonight over dinner my boyfriend and I were discussing my upcoming treatment options when I repeated that statement to him (and not for the first time). Saying it today was like a lightbulb went off in my head…and it hasn’t been sitting right with me since.
I have 100% accepted that I have an illness and right now it is pretty severe. That does not however mean that I’ve accepted that I can’t beat this…fight this…be in remission…any way you want to put it.